a great deal

a great deal has come up in the last month. starting a new job has made me more and more aware of how we/I learn and how we engage with one another. i can’t begin to tell you how much i’ve learned about office culture and the idea of ‘cube farms’.

if i can, i want to make more. i have great ideas for a video series (which i’ll probably only mention here once) along with a more serious philosophical lecture series (which will show up here as soon as i get my nose to the stone of grind).

ostensively, i feel and it seems as though i’m at a creative low, but it’s almost as if i’m at the brink of some turning point. for now, i love my job and that’s meaning an awful lot to me right now.

there she goes

so far…

things are much different than they’ve been for the past few months. in a week or so, i now have a gym, an office, a cubical, a job, a decent paycheck, a routine, self respect and in general; my life back. i feel hopeful, but not good yet about how it’s all going to go.

in terms of what i’ve been up to, since my job is actually turning out to be a great deal of work throughout the day. unlike my previous work which was much more on-demand with periods during the day where i would blog or peruse my rss feeds to kill time, in this new line of work i have no such possibility of having that kind of time.

however, lee and i have been working hard on weekly production of music. typically, lee will have some material ready and we work on it together, but when he doesn’t we either try to work on a song that i’ve written (to no avail) or we cover obscure songs in obscure ways. check that out at www.therearecakes.com

i really want that project to continue, and lee and i have discussed getting a host of people together every week to play or do whatever they can to contribute. perhaps it will take on a life of its own without us entirely. here’s to hoping.

also, i keep meaning to start up a video project similar to something like a TCTV or Most Days, but i’m not sure about it yet. i want it to be regular, and about very little, but i somehow feel it will be important and beneficially structural to my life. however, A) i don’t really do well with speaking publicly and it might take a long time for me to get comfortable with that and 2) it will almost certainly be neither funny or worth while.

friends to miss

a return to routine…

blue and brown

concerning country music

in the office where i work my co-workers insist on keeping the radio tuned to manitoba radio station QX104FM. the monotonous drone of pop-country the southern-drawl and the ‘god’ or ‘war’ overtones make my skin crawl. the only break comes when they play Blue Rodeo once a day (the only thing they play once a day) to fill their Canadian-content requirement.

if rap (apparently) promotes violence and interests in gang activity, does country promote political ignorance and riligiosity?

thinking a lot today about how liberalism, as a whole democratic ideal, purports ignorance and apathy in its occupants. the effort to keep education low is collapsing in on itself morally and as a result economically. what people fail to understand is that a lack of interest in government and the process as a whole is a moral position (whether they like it or not) and it says a great deal about their own character.

i don’t doubt these people have good intentions (the artists, or the listeners in the office) but where is their efficacy?

therearecakes

see therearecakes.com

elated

given the last few photos i’ve posted, i’ve been thinking a lot about bikes and transportation. i miss walking to work and using whatever public transportation is available. i received an offer yesterday to work for the Manitoba Public Insurance Crown Corporation and took it up. in two weeks i’ll be taking the bus downtown everyday and developing a routine and a normal and modest way of life.

it might sound ridiculous, but more than the steady salary, more than the benefits, more than being part of a non-profit public institution, i’m excited about taking the bus.

the rest of the world is in economic turmoil, and imy actual economic future never been more sound than it is now. most important is how this much needed routine will benefit my mental well-being.

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