It is Friday, 6.27.08 and it is hot and humid.
Counting down is making me a bit crazy. Again, I’m confronted with it everyday with work, so it’s difficult to not think about it, but I really need to just relax and enjoy my last bit of time here.
This is really hard to articulate, but I’m really trying. I’ve been living here for 10 months not speaking the language and being noticed wherever I go and feeling awkward and careful about every social system that I’m in. This hasn’t been bad. I’ve done a lot of reading, a lot of travel, a lot of exploring and a lot of thinking. It’s mostly that I’m feeling guilty, and perhaps its my own fault that I’ve tried to be so holistic in my morality, but I want to be more of a part of where I’m from. Being in Japan, and the level of commitment people seem to have to one another in terms of keeping a certain peace and structure to the way they interact with one-another. I’m interested in this kind of social policy, and I want to feel like this at home, but I’m absolutely frightened by the prospect of going home to rude servers, violent crimes, and disenfranchised youth. I feel guilty because I should want to be contributing to making those things that are lacking in my own social system better.
Aside from that, I woke up and made breakfast at home today. I really wish I could figure out how to get coffee at my house… you’d think after 10months? Petar was bailing on me again for the gym, but I sent him a strongly worded SMS back saying that he should reconsider and he did. I ran for about 20mins then Petar joined me for weights and stomach. I had just enough time to shower and have lunch with him before class.
I wanted to do a Letter to Nana today, but just ran out of time. I made a bit of a promise to San, so I’ll definitely be fulfilling it tomorrow.
Got home and went to Petar’s to finsih MGS4. I did, and I was pretty blown away by it. I must say, for as convoluted and awkward the cutscenes and the overarching story line is/are, I’ve really enjoyed it and even want to go through it again a few times. Unfortunately by the time Petar got back from classes, I was just finished up. We downloaded Tekken 5 and I was really skeptical of whether I’d like it. It turns out I was totally blown away and we ended up playing for about 4 hours. I really think that game is intensely interesting.
Tired now. More tomorrow. I promise. Letters, new Holga scans, potential review of the new Indiana Jones movie?
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